I’m feeling disappointed.
As much as I love them, I’m disappointed on how easily can one be judged.
Who are we to judge others?
Stop hurting.
What is wrong with you? I seriously don’t understand. And, I absolutely abhor this feeling. I hate being ignored and haven’t the slightless clue of what’s going on.
It’s as if I don’t know you anymore.
Twentyone, here I come!
pictures up soon
Hell yeah
Maybe we’re not meant to be.
Finally. November is finally here.
You have no idea how much I’m looking forward to the month of November. Not because my birthday falls on this month, and I get to receive presents and stuff. I’m not that materialistic okay. hahahs. It just that I felt October has been a really tremendous tough month, and I really need a breather, a fresh start. November never fails to cheer me up, perhaps it’s nearing the festive season, that’s why.
Before I go rambling on how good november is, lets check out the last few days of October which wasn’t that bad either!
Tried to do a surprise for the birthday boy, Nicholas Wong Bourne
but failed. hahaha
You’ve been a great friend, a wonderful brother. Thanks for all the encouragements and text messages, I still do keep them you know. You never fail to inspire me with words of God, never fail to disturb me and tease me, never fails to bring a smile on my face and to the rest of the cell. Yeah, you’re finally on your way to the final destination. Don’t give up all right, you’ve worked so hard to come this far, I believe you’ll do exceeding well.
Like what you always tell me,
“And the LORD will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be above only, and not be beneath..”
Deuteronomy 28:13
So hang on brother! After your exams, hopefully we can hang out more often, just like old times. =)
Okay, back to November month.
I’m turning twenty-one in 6 more days. Yeah, TWENTY ONE. Can you believe it. ADULTHOOD! *shakes head* Yeah, gonna hold a birthday bash on 15th November, haha, its kinda belated, but who cares, I just want everyone to have fun yeah? Everybody happy = Happy Shirley
Sadly, I don’t have plans for the actual birthday itself. For the past few years, I’ve been spending it with family, and mr. boyfriend. Kinda sad that you’re not here to spend it with me, because I once thought we’re gonna grow old together, blow each other’s candles together.. forever no more.
*smacks my head* I know I know, I deserved a smack. I shouldn’t be thinking of all this, sigh.. sometimes you just can’t help it. He was the love of my life. All right all right, move on move on.
Exam is this coming Friday. Gonna mug for the next few days, don’t be surprised if you don’t see me online. On the side note, I’m desperately craving for some Timbre love. This Friday at Substation is Sara Wee!
ciao~
Evil lurks around the corner of Waterloo street
you’ll never know who you’ll bump into
my dead family
how many candles……
corpse bride
soldiers who kill
It was my first Halloween night, and definitely the best. I think I was so absorbed in my role as a chinese female ghost hiding in the toilet, that I even scared my own ghost-mate (Yiling). hahaha, sorry babe!
meet my fellow sisters
Everyone was really dressed up, we had french maid, lady gaga, ris low, corpse bride, emily rose, monica from addam’s family, sick patient, army girl, artist, chinese maid, ….. awesome girls!
somehow, I find this rather amusing. haha
we simply adore elmo
bloody.
super bloody.
ewww.
Me and Dan decided not to change and we headed home in our outfits. Sure enough, we did get a lot of stares, especially for Dan, he is some mad blood stained school boy who goes around stabbing people. hahah, our ride home was spoooky, our walk home from the mrt station was really fun.
This is why….
Our 10 minutes walk home turned into a 40 minutes journey.
hahaha, it was fun.
looking forward to next year’s Halloween party!
You don’t visit me that much for the past few days, which is good.
I’m glad I’m doing better than what I expected. Though sometimes it does gets me down, times when you’re up alone at 3 in the morning, browsing through photos of you and me, that’s when loneliness kicks in.
I created a folder. Tiny yellow folder on the left hand side of my desktop. Moved everything that has ur face on it, your name on it, memory of you in it, everything, into this tiny yellow folder. Nope, I didn’t discard it into the recycle bin. Memories are meant to be kept, right? Be it good or bad, they’re forever staying with us. It makes the part and parcel of life. Even if I can erase you from my mind completely, my heart always forget to forget you. I think, there will always be a spot for you.
After all that I’ve been through, twenty-first doesn’t seem so significant to me anymore. A few asked me, what am I going to do on my actual birthday? You know what, I don’t know. I don’t desire for anything else but perhaps just a simple day spent together with friends and loved ones. I just want to smile all day long, smile till my jaws hurts, I don’t care.
I’m dressing up for this friday HALLOWEEN NIGHT, woooooohhhhhh… hehehe, its gonna be my very FIRST Halloween party actually, so I hope I’ll do a good job in scaring people, and not be frightened by them instead. hahaha
I can’t reveal to you what am I dressing up as, hehe, stayed tuned to find out! 
Eye candy, you make me go gaga over you.
Looking back, it’s no doubt that October month is a month of stormy sea rides. I think God wants me to have a breakthrough in certain things of my life. Maybe I’m not listening carefully to what He has to say to me.
The events that happened this month, it’s an overwhelming experience for me. I don’t think I can ever forget this October month. The pain, the sufferings, the tears, had deeply etched in my heart and mind. I will remember all of this, because it is through all this, I am made stronger, better, closer to God. I’m proud to say that I’m still standing strong, I’m still leaning towards God, needing Him more than ever before. No doubt, there is fear inside me. The fear of letting go completely, not knowing where should I head from now onwards.
Well, I finally let it go, it’s officially over. Though a part of me dies when I let go you. I know, we’ve tried. We tried to make it work, but differences and time just kept us apart. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me baby, we both know the 2 years was the most amazing, happiest period in our lives. Even if time turns back, I will still gladly go through it once more, cause even if my heart should break, you would be the best mistake I ever made.
When do you move on?
You move on when your heart finally understands.
